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My Darkest Secret
Written by Gor   
Tuesday, 29 April 2003 00:00

I think it’s now time for me to tell you my darkest secret. But, you have to promise me first that after you read it, you won’t change how you feel about me. I really don’t want to tell you about it because it isn’t a good thing to say out loud. But, after I have been thinking very hard about it for so long, I have decided it is important for teenagers to learn from my mistake.

When I was 15, I became a "drug addict". Yes I know. You are probably wondering how a grade A student from a good family could have done something so stupid. Well, listen and I will tell you.

It all started during the summer holidays two years ago. We had just finished grade 9 and my friends went to my house to have a little party. We drank some whisky and talked about the past three years. While we were chatting, a couple of my friends came up to me and asked to go up to my bedroom. So, I excused myself from drinking and led them upstairs.

I opened my bedroom door for them and they walked in and sat on the floor. Then one of them (I will call him "A") took a pack of cigarettes out and broke it open neatly and handed the paper wrapper to my other friend (I will call him "B"). B picked it up and started to roll it while A was tearing out the silver foil from inside the cigarette pack.

Then B put his hand down his underwear and pulled out a very short plastic straw that had been sealed at both ends. It looked like there was something stuck inside. B melted one end of the straw with his lighter. He then shook the straw and something dropped out.

I took a closer look and soon realised that it was two red pills. Also I saw that there were two English letters, "WY", written on the pills. At the time, I remembered that I had seen this kind of medicine somewhere before and I was trying to think where.

While I thought about it, A was putting one pill into the silver foil that he had made into a shape like a boat. B gave him the rolled up piece of paper and he put one end into his mouth. Then A used the lighter to heat the silver foil. The little red pill slowly became black liquid and it started to smoke. He then inhaled the smoke through the straw before passing both the silver foil and the lighter to B.

After I saw how A sat and what he did, I remembered about where I had seen the pills before. I had seen them in a poster at school; an anti-drug poster. It is the poster that nearly every school would have to frighten their students away from drugs. This little red pill is called "Yaa Bah" (amphetamine) which means "crazy medicine" in English. This kind of drug is the most popular one for teenagers in schools.

I was feeling a bit shocked at that moment. I had never thought that any of my friends would take drugs in front of me. I kept saying to myself in my mind again and again, "two of my friends are taking drugs in front of me". At first I was feeling a bit scared of them. But then, I started thinking about trying some. I know my teachers had said that it was bad thing to do, but I didn’t understand why it looked like my friends were having a good time. I was curious.

So, I asked them if I could try. At first they wouldn’t let me. I started getting angry with them. I remember now saying to them something like, "Don’t be stupid, I can control it. I won’t get addicted. Believe me". They hesitated for a few seconds and then passed me the boat shaped silver foil.

Continued in Addicted to Drugs